Being Brave

This is never an easy thing to do. I can safely say there aren't many times in my life where I have chosen to do this. Sure, there are a few; but I have always known the answer or had a pretty good idea/feeling of confidence that I was able to overcome the worst possible outcome of choosing to do so. This applies to all elements of life: starting a new job, beginning a new sport, talking to someone for the first time, travelling by yourself, taking a new class, addressing a pressing issues or concern in your life.
In reflection, I have never really been brave in terms of confronting people or my feelings. This I feel is a universal fear. Who really wants to own their feelings? Who really wants to stand up in-front of someone and confess, confront or expose who you feel? If someone is giving you a hard time, whether it be a friend or a work college or a peer, almost everyone is prone to ignoring it. You tell yourself it will go away. They were in a bad mood. You make excuses for them. You don't want to start drama. But what if someone you care for stops reciprocating those same emotions of love and affection? This is always been people choose to shy away from their feelings. How willing are you to confront them??? Probably not very much - naturally you're scared of the answer. You're fearful of their response. Despite the fact its eating you alive from the inside out and its probably all you can think about. When you wake up in the morning; thinking about it. When you cross the road on the way to work: thinking about it. When you're sipping your coffee: thinking about it. When you're taking notes in a lecture: thinking about it. When you're taking to your room mate: thinking about it. When you're staring out the window of the bus: thinking about it. 

It consumes you. And you are so desperate to know what on earth made this person change or behave in the way they have. Then you begin doing the worst thing you could choose to do: analyzing past messages, phone calls, times spent together etc. What is it. What did you do? What changed?

Midst all the terrible waiting, anticipating (that they will change and return the loving feelings or stop treating you the way they have been) and sleepless nights comes a moment  of exhausting (and I emphasis exhausting) salvation. You decide: 'You know what. I deserve better. I deserve to know why"

In that moment of salvation do you know what you choose to do? You choose to be brave.

You choose to stand up yourself. You choose to demand only the best. You choose to confront this person and relieve yourself of all the past contemplating, pain and doubt. Its hard but well worth it in the end. Life is to short.

Choose to be brave always. No use hiding in the shadows of life's doubt and self pity.

Always,
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